“When you hear the words ‘there is no heartbeat’ the trap door opens and you fall.” -Unknown
3 years ago today.
3 years ago today I heard those words… actually I said those words “there is no heartbeat.”
3 years ago I became a statistic. I became 1 in 4 women to have a miscarriage.
I honestly can’t believe it’s been 3 years. It seems like it was yesterday. I remember every single detail of what happened April 15, 2016 (and April 18, 2016… the day I had the D&C).
I remember the heartache, the fear, the confusion, the anger, the betrayal, the feeling that this can’t be happening to me… but it was.
I remember racking my brain trying to figure out what I did to make this happen and thinking that I could not tell anyone for fear of what they might think.
I remember not fully allowing myself to grieve because I needed to be strong for my 2 and 4 year old daughters who I did not want to see me cry.
I remember like it was yesterday.
While the emotions are still fresh and raw… I have found strength. I have found strength to share my story because I know I am not alone. I have also found the strength to stand and say the words “I had a miscarriage.”
I know my story can help someone and so last year, I shared my story in a 3 part series. It was soooo tough to do but soooo therapeutic. You can read my story here:
And everyday, I wear these bracelets to honor my little Angel in heaven and to remind myself of the strength I have to overcome anything.
My name is Michelle and I am the wife of the hardest working man I know, the Mami of 4 beautiful and AMAZING kids (3 girls and 1 boy) and a Pathologists’ Assistant turned Stay at Home Mami turned Owner and Creative Director of Mami Works Design Studio, LLC. I am super excited to share my experiences and learn from you. As women/moms/entrepreneurs, we must stick together and support each other!